Punishments

I can't believe it's already so late. But at least I'm doing the blog earlier than I did last night. I was playing that game with my friend's again and it went a little later than I expected.

The first punishment I remember getting was being restricted from using the computer. I can't remember what it was for, just that I didn't want to make that mistake again. Being restricted from the computer is a big deal for someone that uses it all the time. It's one of the more severe punishments for me. I remember a few times where you said I couldn't have any candy because I forgot to do things for you. That's more of a slap on the wrist for me. I can easily survive without candy, but I do like having it. I remember another time I was punished by not being allowed to wear panties. It's a more psychological punishment than anything else. It doesn't let me be who I want to be, and that can hurt in a deeper way. Recently you've started spanking me as well. I particularly like it as a punishment because it's over with quickly with no lasting consequences. It hurts physically, but it's a lot better than having to carry around a punishment for a while. It's immediately over.

I don't really like being punished, but of course that's the entire point of punishments. I try my best to not make the same mistakes again, and the punishments help engrave that in me. I want to be the best sub I can be, and not just to avoid being punished. I want to be a good sub because I want to please you. And if the road to that is filled with punishment, then that's just how it will be, and I want to do it to become great for you.