Back at my Dad's

The party wasn't as fun as I was expecting. There wasn't much for me to eat there, and I was feeling too tired to be very sociable. It wasn't really much of a party, more of a family get-together for Halloween.

It was nice spending more time with you while I was there, even if it was just a couple days. I can come back any time after Tuesday, and I will probably want to as soon as I can. Even though I don't have as much to do over there, I still prefer it because you're there. I like spending time with you. Laying with you, cuddling, talking, everything. It's very, very nice to be with you.

Didn't hear from you

I tried calling you today but you didn't pick up. I guess you were resting or something. It's a little unusual that you didn't call back though, so I hope everything is alright. I'll try again tomorrow, more than just once.

My psoriasis is getting SO much better. My chest and stomach are only a light pink and the flaking is almost gone. I don't feel any scales on my scalp, and the little scales scattered across my body are getting smaller. I'm really, really happy about it. I'm sure soon I could get a job and not have to worry about trying to hide it.

I hope I can come back over soon! I really like spending time with you. I should fix my sleep schedule though, so I can spend more time with you instead of sleeping. I actually feel kind of bad for sleeping so much over there. It really felt like I didn't spend enough time with you.

Feels like it's been a while

Even though I was only just there yesterday it feels like it's been three or four days since I've seen you. Maybe I'm just off today, I don't know. But it really feels like it's been a while.

I hope I can come back over soon. After all, the only reason I needed to come home at all was because I was due for my next injection. And of course, now I've gotten it so I can come back whenever someone can get me.

I really need to fix my sleep schedule. Even though it's already past 1 I know I'm going to be up for several more hours. It isn't good for me to do this, so I'm going to try and go to sleep a bit early, and wake up early too. Maybe I'll be able to fix it in a day or two.

Going to call tomorrow, no matter what

I've decided that not knowing anything is worse than learning that something bad has happened. So I've decided that I'm going to call tomorrow when I wake up. Maybe give myself a couple minutes to get ready, but not more than that.

I really hope that you're doing okay. If you are then I promise to come see you soon. You're probably lonely in the hospital. I should stay the night again. I'm sure that would do us both some good, getting to see each other again. I probably can't if you're still in the ICU though. But at worst I could at least see you to make us both feel better. And I would love to talk to you.

Didn't call today either

I feel like such a wuss. I feel scared to call and check how you're doing. I want to know for sure that you're okay but I don't want to risk hearing that something bad has happened. I miss you so much. I hate being apart like this for so long. I don't hear from you, I don't see you... It's awful. It doesn't feel right. We've never been out of contact like this before. I mean we've sometimes gone a day or two without talking, but not very often, and never, ever a whole week.

I guess what I hate the most is that it could be weeks before you get out. Weeks before things get back to normal for us.

Back at dad's

I didn't call today either. I guess I'm a little scared of hearing worse news after last time. I'll definitely call tomorrow though.

It's gotten really hard to write these entries lately. My days aren't very interesting and I haven't talked to you in... It's been almost a week. I haven't talked to you at all since Wednesday, and last I heard from Kathleen you were in the ICU... I miss you and I'm really really worried about you. I went back through all my entries since you got in the hospital. Next week and it'll have been a whole month since you went into the hospital. And it feels like forever since I've seen you last. It's one of very few times since we started being together that we've gone that long without seeing each other. I don't like it very much.

Hope you're okay

I really should have called Kathleen so she could tell me how you're doing. I hate thinking that you're in pain. She mentioned that they're keeping you really drugged but I know it probably still hurts

I go back to my dad's tomorrow. My mom went out and bought me some nice clothes for when I have an interview or something like that. Hopefully getting a job won't take much longer. I really hope you don't have to stay there too much longer. I'm sure you're tired of the hospital.