I was very upset with myself that I hurt you. That I had a moment of doubt. That even for a split second, I wasn't sure if I was completely yours anymore. Even if it was a brief moment, it's almost inexcusable in my mind. I'm supposed to know I'm yours. To feel yours all the time, no matter what. But when you told me to take the ring off... I couldn't. And even just having it suggested made my eyes water. And right then I knew I was yours. That I can't be anyone else's. And how distraught and lost I would be if I wasn't. I need to be yours. I don't just need to sub, I need to be your sub.
I can't believe I'm going to suggest this, especially since you didn't... But I feel as though I should be punished for having doubts like that. I don't know what kind of punishment, how severe, or anything. But it was wrong of me to doubt everything we've worked for and all you've given me. Even if it was a moment of emotional distress, it doesn't matter because I still had those feelings, and I never should. This is my apology to you, and acceptance of any punishment you find reasonable.
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