Talking Today

I found out today that I really, really don't like being scolded. I felt so bad that I did something wrong, that made you unhappy. I started tearing up when I was being scolded. That you were so disappointed in me, because of something that was completely my fault. That I could have easily prevented. That there wasn't any good reason for me not to have prevented. Everything hit me all at once. How much it would hurt me to lose what we have, and how much I want to sub for you. I hate that I did something that disappointed you so much. But at the same time, after I was done being scolded and you forgave me, I realize that it also means a lot to me that you care so much for me. You wouldn't have been so upset if I wasn't important to you. And that makes me really happy...

And of course, now I'm yours. I feel yours. I know I'm yours. And I want to be yours. I hate that the only way I can show it is in words right now, but I am. It feels like I would do anything to make you happy. Even things I don't want to do, I would do as long as it was for you. I miss you though. I want to be with you right now so that I can prove I'm yours. I don't know how I would prove it, and really it doesn't matter to me how. If it means that I can show you what you mean to me, and what I am to you, I would. That's why I can masturbate in front of you. I don't think I could do that for anyone else... It's such a private thing, and it makes me feel more vulnerable than I ever have in my entire life... but I'm showing that side to you, and that makes it okay. Because I'm yours.