Where are You?

I thought it was bad yesterday only being able to talk to you once. I wasn't able to reach you at all yesterday. I didn't see you log in and you didn't answer your phone. I'm worried. The only time you did this before was when I did something wrong. I don't know if you're doing it on purpose or not, and if you are, I don't know what I did wrong. I need to know because it's terrible not knowing if I did something wrong or not. I really hope I didn't and I guess for now that's all I can do.

I masturbated for the first time in several weeks today. Usually you were asking for sex often enough that I didn't need to, but now that I'm away again I have to do it myself. It's a different feeling than sex, for sure. But not better or worse I don't think. I guess I had forgotten what relaxing by yourself felt like. I miss our time together though. Maybe when you get back we can go out or something. We don't have to go to your house. We can just stay out all day and go shopping or something.

I still haven't heard anything about the job at Candler. I'm thinking I should start looking for another job, at the very least while I wait for a response at this one. I can't really afford to just wait for this one, especially if it isn't guaranteed. Maybe Parker's, or somewhere like that. I'm not too picky as long as I'm not working fast food, or construction work or something like that.

I'm doing alright though. I hope you're having a fun time in Texas. I had some lettuce on a chicken sandwich today. I took my vitamins, and I remembered to do my hair.