Not on Track

I'm still trying to get my sleep schedule back on track thanks to that full day of sleep I got. It's not working so well if this is the time I'm going to bed. Seems If I try going to sleep at the right time I'll be able to. Or maybe I'll just lay in bed hoping to sleep. Either way, staying up all day doesn't seem to be a very viable option.

Talking to you today made me realize just how much I was missing you. I was a little irratable online, which is rare for me. Not with you I mean, but with my friends on Muffin. And I couldn't figure out why. And then it hit me that I was feeling lonely. Very lonely. Even though my dad was here, I was very lonely because I didn't have you. And we've only been talking passingly for the past couple of days. I don't like it at all.

I hope it's soon that I'll be able to see you again. You didn't say when, but you said Tuesday was the lastest. That made me feel better. But I still wish I knew when for sure.

Not following the list

It's terrible that I don't always do everything on the list. I don't know what to do about the vegetables though, since I can't seem to get a hold of them every day. And even on the days I do, I have to steal them from my brother since my dad doesn't buy vegetables. He's an even pickier eater than I am. But once he gets the fridge set up (he says he will soon) I'll be able to put V8 in there and not have to worry about that problem anymore.

As for yesterday though. I really should have done everything on the list as soon as I got up and started feeling better, even if that was really late. At least I remembered to blog and take my vitamins. It's hard to forget those because they taste really good, and it's the closest thing I have to candy here. Only a few days left of them though. Hopefully I'll see you again before they run out.

My psoriasis is still slowly getting better. Still scaly and flaky, but a whole lot less so. I'm thinking it might be a lot better by next week, or maybe two weeks. I really want it to get better. I know you do too. And it looks like it's finally heading in that direction.

Feeling Sick

I've been feeling amazingly sick today. I haven't gotten out of bed at all, and have been drifting in and out of sleep all day. I think it's because of the injections I got yesterday. I'm feeling a little better now, but it's so late and I don't know if I'll be able to get back to sleep. My phone has been off too, but it doesn't look like you've tried to call me today. I hope you weren't worried about me because you didn't see me online. If I had woken up earlier I would have tried to call you. But I don't want to risk waking you up, even though I know you get up and go back to bed a lot during the night.

On the plus side, my psoriasis has already cleared up a bit thanks to the injections. I don't remember them working this fast before, but I'm sure not going to complain about it. Being sick for a day is worth it to get rid of that stuff.

Procrastination

I certainly do seem to do a lot of it. It's one of my more glaring faults, and one of the reasons I have so much trouble in school. I always tell myself I have plenty of time and there's no need to hurry. But when you couple that with the fact that I tend to forget things, I'll tend to procrastinate about something and then forget about it until someone tells me about it again. Which sometimes doesn't happen.

I don't even know why I procrastinate so much. Most of the time I have nothing else that I should be doing, and yet I'll still procrastinate. Maybe it's just become habitual and I need to break it as a habit. I'm wondering if you were thinking of something specific when you asked me to write about procrastination. I probably didn't touch on it if you did so I'll ask you tomorrow.

Finished Book 2

I finished the second book today. It had little to do with the first one, which seemed to be more of a collection of short stories than anything. Both were fun to read, but the second one had a consistent plot. Kind of a murder mystery book, taking place in the future. It was a good book.

I'm glad I got to stay a couple more hours than we expected. I wish I could have stayed longer, but it's okay. Next time though I DEFINITELY need to look for a job. We've been putting it off every time I've come over there and I don't want to keep procrastinating. Especially since getting a job over there means I can live in that studio even if I don't have a car yet. Once Bud leaves of course. I don't know what I would do until then, but I'm sure we could think of something.

Going to the dermatologist tomorrow. I don't know if he's going to do anything, but we'll see. The more help I get the better.

Finished the Book

I decided to read first tonight as well, and it looks like I got a little more into it than I was expecting. Probably the last three, maybe four hours I've been reading. But I finished the book. It was interesting. It felt more like a prelude than anything else, but that's probably not inaccurate considering there's several more books in the series.

Family got back from Atlanta a little before midnight. We spent some time watching TV before they decided to go to bed. But it was nice seeing them.

I'm looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. I didn't hear from you at all today, and that worried me a little bit. Normally you get on for at least a little while to let me know what's going on. I hope you're doing better. I'll call you tomorrow if I don't hear from you for a long while. I'm sure you were just resting. I hope it helped.

Lonely

It was actually kind of lonely not having you to talk to today. I'm sorry your foot is doing so bad. I hope it feels better by the time you wake up and read this.

I decided to read before blogging this time. Looks like I didn't go to bed early like I had planned. But that's okay. Today is my last day along so I think it's okay to indulge myself just a little bit. They come back tomorrow but they didn't say what time. Hopefully not too early. But at least when they come back I won't be lonely. But I guess no matter what it's a trade-off. If I'm alone I'm lonely, but if I have people around I have no privacy. I can't decide which is better. Guess it depends on my mood.

I get to see you soon, that's always a nice feeling. Still a day off from tomorrow but I'm already looking forward to it. It feels like it's been a lot longer than a weekend since I've seen you. I hope your foot is feeling better by then. And if it isn't, I'll do what I can to help you.

Nothing Different

Every day is the same if you have nothing to do. It kind of sucks, but it's still nice to have time by myself. I can do what I want to without any interruptions.

At first I couldn't decide whether I should blog or read first. But then I decided I should blog first, just in case my brain decided to fall asleep while I was reading. That's happened to me before. Especially since it's late at night. I still plan to read after I finish this entry however. I should have enough energy left for that, considering I haven't done anything at all today.

The pizza I ordered was... mediocre at best. I'm a little disappointed. The sauce was pretty good but the bread was very, very dry. They also didn't give me extra cheese like I wanted. But maybe that's just me complaining. I would have ordered from somewhere else, but if I had I would never hear the end of it from my dad. How the other pizza places are taking their business, or something. No reason to create stress if it can be avoided. But next time I'm sticking with cheese sticks. They seem to get those right every time.

Only one more full day by myself. And then part of Sunday, but I don't know how long. And then Monday I get to see you. I come back Tuesday, and then Wednesday I go to the DoL. And then Thursday I go to the Dermatologist. My week has pretty much been decided for me. But that's not so bad. At least I know what I'm going to be doing.

Fun Visit

It was nice spending the past few days with you. We really should have gone out to look for a job for me, but it can wait until next time. It was really nice that I was able to fall asleep next to you a few times. Even if you were gone when I woke up it still made me feel very happy.

Things are going okay over here. The animals aren't giving me any trouble. I get to sleep on the couch instead of the air mattress, that'll be really nice. It's so much more comfortable there. I was a little disappointed that you didn't log back in later after you logged off. You said you were going to so I was waiting. I'm sure you just got busy and that I'll catch you tomorrow instead. After all, you don't work tomorrow, so I hope to talk to you then.

Companionship

I'm still not completely sure what to write about. I like companionship, certainly. I think you're a great companion. You're smart and funny and a great conversationalist. You make me smile and laugh. You keep me company, cuddle me, hold me, pet me. You do everything you can for my well-being. I think a domme makes a great companion because a domme can always offer honest advice to her sub. You can tell me when I'm in the wrong. It's not like that in most other relationships. You normally have to make the other person feel like they didn't do anything wrong or they hold it against you.

I always enjoy talking to you. You make me think about myself, which is something I don't normally do. You always ask a lot of questions and keep the conversation moving. It makes me a little worried that I'm not nearly as good a companion as you because of how quiet I am. When I get talking sure I have a lot to say, and can offer good advice, but when it comes to conversational speaking I'm a little more lost. Hopefully you don't feel that way, and you think I'm a great companion as well. But I would understand if you didn't.

Had fun

I enjoyed being over there again. Even being punished, it was much better being over there than over here. I like being able to see you.

I'm sorry I left marks on your neck. I didn't mean to. At the very least you really enjoyed it, so I guess that wasn't all bad. It was a fun night for us both.

I didn't actually think I would, but I felt exceptionally submissive when you were being rough with me. I think I would like to try that again. Not necessarily the same thing again, but I would like to try you being a bit rougher with me more often to see how that feels.

Another late night

I have no idea why I'm staying up so late. I don't even know how I'm doing it. I woke up at about 9:30 or so this morning and I'm still up. No nap or anything. I really need to start going to bed earlier than this though. Of course, you already know that. You always know what's best for me.

I'm a little disappointed that I won't be able to talk at all tomorrow, but I will manage. I deserve this punishment so much. I can be so stupid sometimes. But I guess it's a little too late to try and beat myself up over it. You're taking care of the punishment. It's one of those things I don't have to worry about because you're going to handle it. But if I were going to make a suggestion... I'm not sure if not speaking and no computer is enough of a punishment. I don't know what else would be fitting, but I feel like you're letting me off a little too easily. If you don't think I need to be punished more then I'll consider it done. But I still feel bad about what I did. Maybe I'll feel differently while I'm being punished, but as of now, I don't believe it's enough.

Punishments

I can't believe it's already so late. But at least I'm doing the blog earlier than I did last night. I was playing that game with my friend's again and it went a little later than I expected.

The first punishment I remember getting was being restricted from using the computer. I can't remember what it was for, just that I didn't want to make that mistake again. Being restricted from the computer is a big deal for someone that uses it all the time. It's one of the more severe punishments for me. I remember a few times where you said I couldn't have any candy because I forgot to do things for you. That's more of a slap on the wrist for me. I can easily survive without candy, but I do like having it. I remember another time I was punished by not being allowed to wear panties. It's a more psychological punishment than anything else. It doesn't let me be who I want to be, and that can hurt in a deeper way. Recently you've started spanking me as well. I particularly like it as a punishment because it's over with quickly with no lasting consequences. It hurts physically, but it's a lot better than having to carry around a punishment for a while. It's immediately over.

I don't really like being punished, but of course that's the entire point of punishments. I try my best to not make the same mistakes again, and the punishments help engrave that in me. I want to be the best sub I can be, and not just to avoid being punished. I want to be a good sub because I want to please you. And if the road to that is filled with punishment, then that's just how it will be, and I want to do it to become great for you.

I had a nice time

It was nice staying at your house these past few days. I enjoyed it quite a bit. I'm glad we got to have sex this time. Must mean my psoriasis is getting better. My dad is happy with the new minifridge. It's about twice the size of the old one. He's going to have to find somewhere else to put it before we can use it, but at least we have a larger fridge now.

It's terrible that I can't think of more to put in the blog tonight. I'm actually sick to my stomach and have a terrible headache at the same time. It's making it really hard to come up with a good entry. But I wanted to put something in here today before I went to bed. I hope you understand why I didn't put more.