Disconnected

A large part of my lack of connection when we're away comes from the fact we were away from each other for so long, and didn't have contact at all for some time. And then my internet problem came up, and even though you're better now, we haven't been able to talk daily like we used to. I remember feeling connected to you before, so I think once we get back into our normal schedules that feeling will come back to where it was. It's just been unfortunate coincidence after coincidence.

To keep the disconnect from continuing, barring any other unforeseen event, I think we should make an effort to talk every day like we used to. Part of it is that I do have a need for attention and it does disconnect us a bit when we don't talk.

I really should have posted this earlier but once the internet was back up I wanted to talk to all my friends and everything. I hope you aren't upset I stayed up this late.

What I want in a domme

There are really a lot of things to say about that. I guess the main reason I want a domme is because it feels nice having one. I feel safe, protected, secure, loved, wanted, needed... But as for specific qualities in a domme, I'm not sure I know completely. I've roleplayed all about it before, but it's completely different to experience it yourself. And that's what I've been doing since we started. Experiencing it. I'm not sure what other dommes are like, or what qualities they have that you don't. I don't mean to sound like the only qualities I can think of are ones that you have, but I don't know of many others.

One quality I know for sure is important to me is gentleness. Not leniency, but gentleness. I like soft touches a lot, as I'm sure you've figured out. But I also like to be talked gently to, and things like that. Another thing that I want in a domme is general niceness. I wouldn't want a domme that was mean to me, or hurt me all the time. Something else that is nice to have is a domme that is willing to do things for you sometimes. Like how you pay for my monthly event and buy me food all the time. I want a domme who will help me fix some of the problems I have, like procrastinating and setting schedules for myself.

There are the only things that are coming to mind right now. I'm sure there are more, but it took me over an hour just to come up with those, and nothing else is coming to mind. But for sure those are the things that are most important to me in a domme.

At my mom's

I'm visiting my mom for a day or two so I'll be able to post on the blog until I get back. Hopefully by then the internet will be back on, but I'm not counting on it. I think I'll talk to my brother when I get back, and see what's going on. It's taking a really long time after all.

Other than that I'm doing pretty well I guess. I'm a lot more tired today than usual so I'm posting a bit early. The meeting at the Department of Labor went well. It was more of a self-assessment of my skills than anything though. But they also gave me a bunch of new information that I didn't have before, and I signed up for another program at the Department of Labor. Unfortunately I can't do anything with that program until January, because that's when the next orientation is. Hopefully the one I've been doing won't take quite that long, and I'll have a job before I have to resort to the second program.

I go back to them this Tuesday for a follow-up, and then I get scheduled for weekly job search sessions. Those are only supposed to last an hour, as opposed to lasting all day like the meeting did.